When Dr. Tapasi Saha is stressed from her work as a nephrologist or if she sees a need for compassion in those around her, she turns to her love of poetry to ease the burdens that she and others may be experiencing. Born in Bangladesh, a culture rich in fine arts, Dr. Saha has done stage performances of recitations since 2011. Her poetry has been published in her home country newspapers and was released in a CD format from Bangladesh a few years ago.
When one of her patients lost two children in a few months’ time span, Dr. Saha not only wrote poetry for the patient but also read her work to her. “She placed her hand on my head and said that was the best gift a grieving mother could ever have,” explained Dr. Saha. “If my poetry can make a difference in someone’s life, that gives me all the motivation that I need to create a special gift of poetry for my friends.”
Dr. Saha began writing poetry after her mother’s passing on March 23, 2012, and each year will write a poem on March 23 to honor her beloved mother. “This is a gift that I have been given so sharing it with people around me who need a word of encouragement is the way I can give back.” Dr. Saha continued, “Sometimes people are at a loss of words to use to comfort others, but poetry can achieve that level of compassion in just a few short verses.”
The poems featured in today’s edition of Sunday Stories were written for Dr. Saha’s mother and the mother of her dear friend and coworker, Markalene Earles. They are excellent examples of how Dr. Saha uses her pen to make the lives of those around her just a little more pleasant.
“Letter to My Mother”
Dedicated to Sriti Kona Chowdhury
Written by Tapasi Saha
Mother, I am writing this letter with enormous sadness in my heart,
The 23rd of March is a special day for me, but actually
This special day brings me mixed feelings.
Whenever I think about the fact that I can never see you again
My heart fills with a dark cloud, and breaks so that I can hardly breathe
Missing you, I feel drained and powerless all day long
Then I remember all the pain and sufferings you endured
Happiness fills my empty heart as I know that is gone for you
But to tell you the truth, I always carry you in my heart.
And I always feel your presence inside my soul
When I am sad, I feel that you’re patting on my back
When I am happy, you are my dancing heart
You were the most beautiful woman I have ever known.
Mother, you taught me how to love, how to care
I always think when I will be able to leave this thirsty world
And meet you in the beautiful garden of heaven where you’re currently residing
I am grateful to God that on the 23rd of March 2012 he relieved your sufferings
You always loved to sing, but after the stroke, you became nonverbal.
You always wanted to live your life with dignity
But you had to live a life for a few years that you never wanted.
I barely had any meaningful conversation with you after the stroke until you passed.
With the speech therapy, your speech was improved little bit.
You sang your last song, “Amar Bela Ja Jai” (my days are ending)
Mother, you had a great husband. Daddy loved you so much so much
In my eyes the best love scene on the earth
You are sitting in the wheelchair and Daddy is combing your hair.
It has been five years since you left us
But Mother it feels like I have not seen you in ages
Although I miss you a lot
But I do not want to shed lots of tears today
Because I know someday, we will be connected with soul again.
“Mother Oh Mother What a Treasure You Are”
Dedicated to Karen Vernae Fields, Mother of Markalene Earles
Written By Tapasi Saha
Mother oh Mother what a treasure you are
In your daughter’s hidden heart
I will cherish you till the end of my life
Thinking about you takes me far away from earth
Thinking about you makes me so peaceful and proud
Because I represent you mother
Mother oh Mother it’s my pleasure to describe my feelings
For you in alluring words
I have been trying to put my thoughts together
So that I can write for you the most magnificent poem
Of the whole sphere
You are such an extraordinary creation of great universe
I will be always longing for your touch
I will be always craving for your love
Nobody can take you away from the hidden garden
Of my heart because you’re unbelievably precious.
Whenever my hopes and dreams have shattered
You were always there with your outstretched arm
To hold me tight so that I can move forward
Whenever I’m scared, I want to hold you in my thoughts
Until my fear subsides because you are such a Power
So, one thing I have taken for granted in my life
Which is Mother’s love because I know I would never lose that.
Mother oh Mother I want to hold you in my memories till the end of time
As long as wind blows, as long as stars shine, you will be always mine.
Mother oh Mother what a treasure you are
You will live in my thoughts and dreams forever.